Eliza Jane Wigington entered the world at 10:58 am Sept 11, 2015 ... The day of remembrance has forever been altered and will have a different meaning for me. I had been spotting brown blood off and on all week, but not even enough to have a pad. That night I had some pink, and then red blood show. Again, not enough for a pad. I felt like saying "what is all this bleeding everyone was prepping me for?"
In the morning, I had mild cramps throughout the 10:00am hour, near the end of the hour I started to do some deep breathing through the cramps (I use hypnobirthing instead of medication for laboring) Around 10:45 I felt a gush , it was her water breaking, but i didnt realize that is what it was. I went to the bathroom about 10 mins later to check on it. I got a catching bowl from the hospital and sat down. I felt alot of "stuff" come out immediately. I got up and looked at the bowl. I immediately saw a hand, she was under her placenta (that was still attached) I moved the placenta and saw her whole body. I called jeremy to come quick. We saw her head, spine, ribs, legs, arms, all of her perfectly formed fingers and toes. Her head had fallen into the toilet and wasn't attached so I fished it out. I identified it right away. Her body was mostly attached, one arm was not attached either. But I put her back together on a piece of satin. I was so concerned she would dry out and we couldn't see her all together, but I did get her together. .
I loved looking at her tiny fingers and toes and elbow and knees and all her little details .. For obvious reasons I'm not sharing her picture. Having her body put all together is relieving and its helped me be at peace.
After Eliza passed I was just spotting, didn't have extreme bleeding, around 12:45 we buried her. My friend Ethan had prepared her grave and dug her hole a few days ago.
After taking some good pictures of her and her casket, we took her outside and buried her. My husband dedicated the grave and we layed her to rest. Donna helped Jeremy fill the hole with dirt. I noticed Kyra was having a really hard time she didn't want to participate, she just sat and cried. Since I wasn't bleeding very much, II assumed I was fine and asked Jeremy if he would take her to get ice cream to try to cheer her up and have a little dad / kid bonding time.
After 20 mins after they left, within 2 mins I passed 2 very big clots , one was baseball and the other was golf ball sized. I called my ob he said to high tail it to the er. Knowing Jeremy was already in town and it would take 15 mins for him to get home then 15 to get to the hospital. So it would take a half hour to get there and I was BLEEDING badly! I called a few friends couldn't reach anyone, (mom was also in town, giving the same problem as Jeremy) I called my friend Chris asked her if she could take me. She rushed over and she dropped me off at the er then took Donna to my moms.
While at the ER I proceeded to have a full flow of consistent blood coming out of my cervix. I passed probably 15 more huge clots, soaked 2 packages (20) of chucks (those blue soaking pad things they have you sit on) half a container of paper towels (we were using them to soak up the blood) finally... After 2 ivs, 4 medications , 8 vials of blood and almost 9 hours they got the bleeding to stop and I was able to go home. I refused to leave until I knew the last medication worked and I had truely slowed down my bleeding. It did!
After coming home I was just fine very little bleeding. (I did it all that day!)
NOW All is well.. my post partum bleeding is normal now and I should be just fine ;)
I admit I'm terrified of getting pregnant again... I'm gonna be such a neurotic pregnant mama!
I guess I'll retire this blog unless I have more happen soon, it until I get pregnant again..
Goodbye blog...
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