Hump week!!!

Yeahhh!! today marks half way through the pregnancy !! 20 weeks!

One one hand I cant wait for this baby to get here... on another hand I LOVE being pregnant... Feeling her move.. on another hand I just want to have the little princess here all ready... on another hand I DON'T REMEMBER how to be a mom .. LOL rather a "newborn's mom"

On that last topic..
I haven't changed a diaper since Kyra was a toddler. Seriously I need to borrow someones child and change a few diapers LOL.. teach Kyra how to do it too :) We really need a new siblings class at our hospital here :) that would be fun I know Dixie regional has one mabee Ill make the drive to St. George and take her to that class it would be fun for her.

I forgot to write a few days ago, I kept having these HORRIBLE HORRIBLE dreams I thought I might have been going crazy so I looked it up apparently its common.. due to hormones!! **phewwww** thank goodness cause I did NOT like those dreams at all they were just  very scary dreams about murder :(

I think thats all for this week :)

19 week OB appointment and birthing plan

Yesterday I had my monthly OB appointment. Everything happened as expected.  I have only gained 2 pounds since last month, little Donna's heart beat was 150 .. PERFECT heartbeat for a baby :)
I talked to my Dr about my birthing experience with Kyra because I was concerned about a few things. When  I had Kyra I was induced at around 4 in the afternoon, with a little pill they put on my cervix, I didn't feel anything till around 2 AM (about 10 hours later) when I was feeling "some pain" so they gave me something in my IV drip then I went back to sleep till about 5 AM when they woke me up to break my water and all hell broke loose then, I was feeling the pain then, I went from 3-10 in under 2 hours and was given my epidural at around 6 am and had Kyra at 7:10AM...
The things I was concerned about were a few things:
1: How fast my labor progressed, with this birth 2 people in my birthing team live hours away
2: my body went into shock because of the epidural, and I was shaking the whole time, I dont want that to happen again so we talked about it and we will try to go natural.

So I made a birthing plan:

1: Unless she comes by December 31st I will be induced that evening so that I can have the baby on new years day. This is not just cause it would be cool to have my baby's birthday be 1-1-11 but Because Charlie lives 6 hours away and Christie lives 3 1/2 hours away and that is about the earliest I can be induced because I want to ensure they can both be there!! and if we wait until I do it naturally they may not make it in time because I give birth quickly!
2: Kyra (will cut the umbilical cord) , my mommy (well cause she's my mama), Christie (she did doula training a few years ago so she's gonna do great as my birthing coach!) and Charlie (the father of miss Donna) will be in the birthing room.
3: Ways to keep my pain under control in labor will be: Meditation and massage, Birthing ball bouncing (I've been seeing that alot on baby story and the mothers in labor all say that it takes alot of the pain away) the labor rooms also have jetted tubs, so I will go in the bath to relax my body as well. other than these just the typical Lamaze techniques.
4: I want to see the baby, so I want a Birthing mirror
5: I want to nurse her as soon as she is born.
6: I want to video tape the birth
7: she is NOT to have a bottle or binkie

Thats my birthing plan so far. I'm sure Ill change and adjust it the closer I get to her birth :)

Baby Donna's Room is almost ready!

So now that its good and confirmed that Donna is a girl I can finish putting her bedroom together. So I went and bought a mattress for the crib today so i put the bed all together with the bumpers and sheet and bedding its so cute, and then I finished putting all the clothes out (I have bought a bit but didn't put it away just cause everyone made me question my instincts!!)  so here are some pictures of miss Donna's room, I still have the net to put over the bed and to get the mobile, but other than those 2 things I think the room is just about ready to go :)
So here are the pictures of her room

Look at all those burp rags I made today !! There is 2 of each :) I'm so proud of them

Hair stuff in top shelf shoes  middle shelf and socks bottom shelf are in the pink and purple cubbies and her coats and jackets are hanging on the rack. They are so cute, look at that big snuggle snow suit for when she comes home!! so big for a newborn!!

Top shelf L-R toys .. need more... hats we got PLENTY... breast pump.. do you need more then one when its medela?? NOPE!! Bottom shelf left is clothes clothes clothes I got plenty of clothes !!!
the left basket has in the back, full top/bottom outfits, front left has light weight full nightgowns, Right is Heavy weight night gowns
The right basket : back right CUTE onesies (plane onesies are in that basket way at the top left of this picture) back left is ruffle bumms, front left is pants, front right is shirts that aren't onesies.
Am I missing anything ?

Donna's bed is all put together her changing table is all stocked...pad ... check... relieving blankets ... check... Burp-rags ... check... Bibs ...SUPER check (thats whole basket is FULL of them!!well over 40!!) medium weight blankets ... could use a few more... heavy blankets... got a Few need more

Very top is more clothes (3-6 months and 6-9 months) and bottles and breast feeding stuff . I already told you what's in the middle and the bottom is bath stuff and a boom box for her soothy cd

SHE IS DEFIANTLY A GIRL!!!

HELLO MISS DONNA!!!
We had the ultrasound today and YEP I was right!! She is surely a girl!!
At the Ultrasound we had Kyra and my mom and Charlie and his mom.

We got there at 12:30 the appointment was for 1:00 but they told us to be there a half hour early.
So we sat there and waited and waited for them to take us back. they finally did.
She took a bunch of pictures and I was dying with anticipation. Kyra was so cute she remembered when we went to Mississippi my friend Stacey told her if you see 3 lines its a girl, so Kyra recounted this story and told the Ultrasound lady to look for 3 lines because she thinks its a girl. A few minutes later the Ultrasound tech told Kyra to look a the screen and told her to say it again, as she pointed at the 3 lines on Donna, so Kyra exclaimed its a GIRL!! it was very cute :)

So finally after waiting and waiting and waiting to confirm what I knew to be true!! She is a girl!! Donna is a girl!!

YEAHHhhhhhh

Baby book

Ok so first off.. we find out the gender of this baby for SURE in 3 days, 16 hours... I'm on cloud 9!! Cant wait!!

Secondly I just realized today that i haven't written in my baby book since i got it! the ONLY thing I have done with it  is put the ultrasound pictures in it... OOOps ... So I start filling out the first trimester stuff and i cant remember ANYTHING!! Thank goodness I started this blog for reminders LOL

Tomorrow I get to go to the dentist and get 4 freaking cavities fixed OUCHY!!

Baby is just moving so much right now... I love the flutters!!
I have started playing music to the little baby this week :) its so good for the baby when its born. From what I know it is basically Opporant conditioning of the baby. The baby listens to the music at the same times each day the whole time it is in the womb, Thus teaching it to be soothed by the music, then, when you play the same music once (s)he is born they will beable to be soothed by the same music and fall asleep quicker...
I used this with Kyra it worked for her...

I bought this CD at walmart its VERY pretty calming music! and thats what ive statted using.. Heck I have fallen asleep to it a few times its just THAT good LOL hahaha heres a link where you can buy it from walmart

 

baby ???boy??? dreams dreams dreams

oh my heck all my dreams last night were all about having a boy... what should I think ? for years I have "KNOWN" that I wpuld have 2 girls now this. I can't tell if its just mug subconscious giving me crappy about everyone else saying I'm having a boy or I really AM.
WELL WE FIND OUT FOR SURE in 4 days 23 hours .... the suspense is killing me!!

at this weekends garage sales I didn't buy any clothes I for nothing but gender non specific stuff some avent bottles, some swaddling clothes, some generic baby toys and rattles. oh wait I got a really cute dragon boppy its totally cute, it roars and everything.

however I just realized that's kind of a boy thing though too crap mabee I AM having a boy ....*** nervous****

long break UPDATE

Sorry for the long break I have been lazy and forgot that i had this blog.. (Im honest)

So to catch you up...
Charlie (the baby's father) broke up with me... but for now we are trying to be civil, even though right now I am not to sure about how much he desires to be in the baby's life. He has said some very hurtful things about me and the baby recently and I honestly don't know how much I cant trust him right now, but I am trying to have compassion and be more understanding but its difficult with certain circumstances.  I am leaving it at that.

On a more positive note...

Kyra and I went to Mississippi to visit my friend for a week this month it was very fun :) Kyra even got to pet a live wild alligator!! it was totally fun!

Our garden is doing very well in the yard.. exploding everywhere :) I'm even pulling weeds and pretending as though I'm not even pregnant. HA HA

The baby's room is nearly put together. I finally have all of my work stuff out of the office (well other than the closet, which I will tackle next week) The crib is up the changing table is set her dresser area is all set up all ready to go :) with clothes sorted washed folded and put away I've even started buying diapers and wipes... never can be TOO prepared!

When we went to the Dr's office 2 weeks ago we tried to have a peeksy at if the baby was a girl or boy.. and luck would have it the umbilical cord was dead between the legs DANG.. so there was NO way to tell what the baby was :(

Today the baby is 17 weeks, the pregnancy is just flying by!! I started feeling the baby move about a week and a half ago... Its amazing I love feeling it :)

I have 2 different ultrasounds I'm posting here
first one (well 2)  is at 12 weeks :) baby looks like she's on her head LOL I like the second one.. you can see her features so well... Head face nose mouth legs... the one on the top though you can see the hand.. she kept waving at us LOL it was cute :)

then the next on on the right is at 16 weeks when we went to look at the sex.. couldn't see it.. obviously the baby's been moving cause she's facing the total opposite way that time. if you look you can see the face, eyes mouth hands stomach and 1 leg :)


One thing thats been interesting is finding maternity clothes for fat people very difficult and really? I have tried the old navy clothes and they dont even come up to the belly.. its like a pair of jeans with a piece of fabric around it.. which is dumb.. not supportive in the least...
SO I have researched and figured out a way to make my OWN maternity clothes. I Used my new surger and did a test run.. and I LOVE THEM!!

I am gonna convert about 5 pairs of jeans and 2 pairs of slacks into maternity pants :)
Im so impressed with myself for doing such a good job!! it looks very professional :)

So Ive been kinda obsessed with watching baby story, and bringing home baby and all those sappy shows about child birth I saw quite a few really good ones about people using a doula. My friend Christi was going for her doula certification a few years ago and asked her if she would like to be my birthing coach she is excited about that :) and frankly so am I!! I know she'll make sure what I want is carried  out I know it!! 

and i loves her lots so I know Ill be surrounded by love when I give birth.. Kyra, My mom, Kristy :) feeling the love ? I am :) and I'm not even in labor yet :)  

Ok so thers the update..
the ultrasound dot find out the gender is in 1 week 2 days :) I CANT WAIT!! Charlie said he's gonna be there so yeaaaaaaahhh....