long break UPDATE

Sorry for the long break I have been lazy and forgot that i had this blog.. (Im honest)

So to catch you up...
Charlie (the baby's father) broke up with me... but for now we are trying to be civil, even though right now I am not to sure about how much he desires to be in the baby's life. He has said some very hurtful things about me and the baby recently and I honestly don't know how much I cant trust him right now, but I am trying to have compassion and be more understanding but its difficult with certain circumstances.  I am leaving it at that.

On a more positive note...

Kyra and I went to Mississippi to visit my friend for a week this month it was very fun :) Kyra even got to pet a live wild alligator!! it was totally fun!

Our garden is doing very well in the yard.. exploding everywhere :) I'm even pulling weeds and pretending as though I'm not even pregnant. HA HA

The baby's room is nearly put together. I finally have all of my work stuff out of the office (well other than the closet, which I will tackle next week) The crib is up the changing table is set her dresser area is all set up all ready to go :) with clothes sorted washed folded and put away I've even started buying diapers and wipes... never can be TOO prepared!

When we went to the Dr's office 2 weeks ago we tried to have a peeksy at if the baby was a girl or boy.. and luck would have it the umbilical cord was dead between the legs DANG.. so there was NO way to tell what the baby was :(

Today the baby is 17 weeks, the pregnancy is just flying by!! I started feeling the baby move about a week and a half ago... Its amazing I love feeling it :)

I have 2 different ultrasounds I'm posting here
first one (well 2)  is at 12 weeks :) baby looks like she's on her head LOL I like the second one.. you can see her features so well... Head face nose mouth legs... the one on the top though you can see the hand.. she kept waving at us LOL it was cute :)

then the next on on the right is at 16 weeks when we went to look at the sex.. couldn't see it.. obviously the baby's been moving cause she's facing the total opposite way that time. if you look you can see the face, eyes mouth hands stomach and 1 leg :)


One thing thats been interesting is finding maternity clothes for fat people very difficult and really? I have tried the old navy clothes and they dont even come up to the belly.. its like a pair of jeans with a piece of fabric around it.. which is dumb.. not supportive in the least...
SO I have researched and figured out a way to make my OWN maternity clothes. I Used my new surger and did a test run.. and I LOVE THEM!!

I am gonna convert about 5 pairs of jeans and 2 pairs of slacks into maternity pants :)
Im so impressed with myself for doing such a good job!! it looks very professional :)

So Ive been kinda obsessed with watching baby story, and bringing home baby and all those sappy shows about child birth I saw quite a few really good ones about people using a doula. My friend Christi was going for her doula certification a few years ago and asked her if she would like to be my birthing coach she is excited about that :) and frankly so am I!! I know she'll make sure what I want is carried  out I know it!! 

and i loves her lots so I know Ill be surrounded by love when I give birth.. Kyra, My mom, Kristy :) feeling the love ? I am :) and I'm not even in labor yet :)  

Ok so thers the update..
the ultrasound dot find out the gender is in 1 week 2 days :) I CANT WAIT!! Charlie said he's gonna be there so yeaaaaaaahhh....